Low and I Don’t Know is not just a song—it’s my story written in sound and visuals. This music video is a deeply personal and raw glimpse into some of the hardest moments of my life. It was filmed on location at War Memorial Hospital, during one of the many times I’ve found myself in the emergency room with my wife. This is not staged. This is not a performance for the camera. This is the real me, living through real trials, and choosing to point to Jesus in the middle of it.

The title Low and I Don’t Know captures the heart of the struggle. Life will push you to places where you feel at your lowest—physically, mentally, spiritually—and you don’t know what the next step will be. I’ve been in those moments countless times, sitting in hospital waiting rooms, hearing difficult news, and fighting to keep my faith alive. Those words aren’t just poetic. They’re my reality.

But here’s the beauty: even when I don’t know, I trust the One who does. When I am low, Jesus meets me there. He has never failed me, even when the situation looked impossible. That’s what this music video represents. It’s about honesty. It’s about showing that Christians aren’t immune to suffering, but we do have a Savior who carries us through it.

Every frame of this video is intentionally real. The sterile walls of the hospital. The quiet loneliness of the ER. The weight you feel in your chest when you don’t know what tomorrow holds. I directed, edited, and created this project myself because I wanted the story to stay true to what I’ve lived. I wanted it to be raw, unfiltered, and vulnerable. Because that’s what life has been for me and my family.

The lyrics of Low and I Don’t Know come from prayers whispered in tears, from nights of exhaustion, from wrestling with fear and uncertainty. But woven into that is the thread of hope that only Jesus can give. It’s a testimony that even when we feel weak, even when we feel like we can’t take another step, God is still faithful.

I know there are people out there who will relate to this. Maybe you’ve spent nights in hospitals too. Maybe you’ve felt the sting of fear, or the ache of not knowing what’s next. Maybe you’ve questioned your faith in the middle of pain. If so, this song is for you. You’re not alone. And I pray that my story gives you encouragement to hold on and lean on Christ when you feel like giving up.

As Paul writes in 2 Corinthians 12:9–10, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. … For when I am weak, then I am strong.” Those verses have been my anchor in times when I felt completely undone. Low and I Don’t Know is my way of bringing those Scriptures to life through music.

This video is also a reminder that art and faith don’t have to hide the hard parts of life. Too often, music videos are polished highlight reels. But I wanted to show the reality—the waiting, the struggle, the hospital visits, the weight on the soul. Because that’s where God’s light shines the brightest.

I hope Low and I Don’t Know resonates with you, whether you’re a believer or just someone walking through tough times. Pain is universal, but so is the need for hope. This is my offering to you—a reminder that even in the lowest valleys, Jesus is near.

Thank you for watching, listening, and sharing this part of my life. This is more than music to me. It’s my testimony, my ministry, and my act of worship. If you’re going through your own low right now, I pray this song reminds you: you don’t have to know all the answers, because the One who holds tomorrow already knows.

—GATER The BARD