No matter how hard the relationship can be we only got one life and that life is suppose to be filled with love and joy and beautiful memories and for me I may not have all that but the one thing I can say is I have been there for my spouse every step of the way even if there is no love that I feel. We both know how we feel about each other but its hard to let go of a relationship that we have built so much for with our kids and especially for their future. I do long for love but only god can heal my heart.